comfortably numb

Today's our off, so off to two days of movie marathons, slacking off and sleeping.

I just thought that maybe i'm taking things too seriously...life is really complicated and the only thing to do about it is to apply Carpe Diem to be happy and jolly everyday.

Yeah maybe it's with something I ate for breakfast. Planning to get rid of mounted clothes and dust bunnies at home, what else? Hmm...

it's already 11:55 am here and im here at the office. Just finished a whole week's labor and we (Liz & I) are waiting for Miko the MC to hang around Megamall and maybe play guitar freaks.

inner conflicts

Plainly i've been observing myself on why i am not sociable. Maybe because i perceive myself as an antisocial, and people see that; even to my "friends" i feel lost. Maybe it's just that i haven't succumbed and accepted some people as friends.. and why am i making a great deal out of it?

Recently I have seen revelations of my own personality and I really can't find any meaning, or because of numerous times when I try to hide the real me or make me be the person people want me to be, I lost my uniqueness. Maybe i don't have a personality at all.

I have no idea who this person is. There are times in which i find myself wanting greater things and doubt it afterwards... so for the previous months that i kept on thinking that maybe i am truly a walking contradiction. At times i surprise myself on how my ego reacts on it's own (without undergoing any processes) and it changes ever so quickly.

If i'd take this too seriously i know i'm going to lose my mind. Maybe I just need take a break, and meditate.