Plainly i've been observing myself on why i am not sociable. Maybe because i perceive myself as an antisocial, and people see that; even to my "friends" i feel lost. Maybe it's just that i haven't succumbed and accepted some people as friends.. and why am i making a great deal out of it?
Recently I have seen revelations of my own personality and I really can't find any meaning, or because of numerous times when I try to hide the real me or make me be the person people want me to be, I lost my uniqueness. Maybe i don't have a personality at all.
I have no idea who this person is. There are times in which i find myself wanting greater things and doubt it afterwards... so for the previous months that i kept on thinking that maybe i am truly a walking contradiction. At times i surprise myself on how my ego reacts on it's own (without undergoing any processes) and it changes ever so quickly.
If i'd take this too seriously i know i'm going to lose my mind. Maybe I just need take a break, and meditate.
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