haven't had the chance to update for the past months, which is really pathetic. I just thought that my life is too dull to put on writing anyway.

let's see. anything remarkable for the year?

January : Doing the same routine, payday is not as rewarding as it was. I never got enough energy to go through a working day to drag meself to work, talk, talk and talk for almost 6 ++ hours (since i am already in the eve shift, we always get to go home earlier and still get paid) and then

February: On the end of January my century year old grandad died of old age (as the death cert says: pneumonia and severe malnutrition) i know he's happy with my grandma and my other relatives, and i am also pretty sure that he is in heaven. too bad though, i just got to know more about him after he passed away. he did a lot of noble things, and even at the point of death he still managed to be dignified enough to spend the money he saved by selling fish in wee hours of morning, and gave my father the money to go back here in manila. how i wish my dad was like him.

aside from the painstaking pursuasion to work, and knowing that this is a no brainer job, my stats at work starts to go down the drain. i feel that i am being a liablity (as my friend said when he was experiencing the 'almost' same fate as i am, though in his case it was temporary, in my case i think i am beginning to lose touch.

also i miss the feeling of school. all the pressure; creativity streaks; getting my fingers dirty and stuck together with super glue; last minute projects and race against time stuff. and not to forget the crowd. ooh i miss being with my blokes.

I then realize. I am sick and tired of this.